Tuesday, April 7, 2009

April showers bring May Flowers

So, Ya its been a few months sense I have posted anything to my blog and I figured its about time to bring everyone up to date. I am as always good. I got gas in the tank of my truck a job to go to every Mon-Fri, a place to call home, and food in my belly. What else dose this man need? Now as far as Trisha goes I am growing more and more concerned with her health and state of mind every day! I am vary worried that she is slipping back into her depression more and more as the weeks fly past. I am finding myself in that place were you don't know what it is the right thing to do. I don't know if I should let her be and just try and be there for her when she is ready, or do I try and do something and risk loosing her by making her so upset and angry at me she decides to leave me. I want to help her and love her, but on the other hand when is enough, enough and I find myself doing everything by myself with no support? I am vary grateful for the thing she dose at home, but I have to say it become less and less as time goes on. So it seams I have once again come to the crossroads of life, and could really use a GPS to tell me witch way to go! I think ultimately the choose is up to her on what she dose I can only wait a see.

It seems Life is giving everyone in our families curve ball as of late. My parents are fighting there own battle with my dad's former employer. What makes a man become so evil and greedy I have no idea but he has sure done a number on my dad. I think having dealt with Trisha's depression help me recognise it in my father right a way. He too has been fight depression ever sense his heart attack a few years ago. The Fun thing about depression is just when you think your on top of it, it will out flank you from the side and hit you twice as hard as it did before. I am glad I can be there to help out my mom even if it is just talking on the phone but being able to relate to what she is trying to deal with I think is good for her. I just hope she can hang in there long enough to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really wish I had better thing to talk about but I guess I don't. I really hope all that read this who ever you might be are well. I am sure life will turn for the better soon and all these small little things we deal with will be replaced with new one's, and some day I will look back and say I made it though that I can make it though anything so bring it on, or just the opposite and say I wish that was all I had to deal with! Who knows? but for now I'll take it one day at a time and always keep my boots on!

Until we meet again have a good one!

Tuesday, January 13, 2009

Time Fly's when your havin fun or under sadation!

What a busy month it has been sense my last post. At the end of Nov. Trisha and I celebrated our 10 year anniversary. It's hard to believe we have been married that long it only bean like a short time ago we got married. We spent Thanksgiving here in Sacramento with some good friends of ours Mike and Gina. Gina's mom and step dad when hear from New Jersey visiting her and the grand kids. We both had a great time over dinner at there home. It's always interesting to partake in other families traditions and to sample different family's food chooses for the holidays. Mike and Gina's Thanksgiving food dish's were different being from the east coast then say what I grew up having. All the food was great and again we had a great evening with them.

In the early part of Dec. I finally got to see a Neurosurgeon about my back and leg pains. I had been waiting for a long time trying to get in and see one. After looking over my MRI's from last year and this year he could see my bulging disk getting worse and bigger. We talk about the options and decide that surgery to remove the bugle would be best for me. The earliest he could do it would be the first part of Jan after the holidays. I was hoping to do it before the holidays so that I could use the time off I was taking to recover but he was booked.

Trisha and I left Sacramento on the 23rd of Dec to start are Christmas holiday. We drove to Prineville were we spent about a week with my parents, brothers and sister. We had a great time there. It's not vary often that we can get the hole Family together in one place for vary long. We also brought our to puppy's with us. They had a great time playing with all the other dogs at mom and dad's house I think there was a total of 7 dog's there. We had plenty of snow this year and had a true white Christmas.

We left Prineville and headed to Portland to spend time with Trisha family as well as attend a wedding for a good Friends of ours Ralph and Kristen. We exchanged gifts with Trisha family and had a great visit with them as well. The Wedding was short and sweet. It was fun to see old friends who we have for what ever reason lost touch with over the years. I was really taken back on how much things have changed in Troutdale and Gresham sense we had moved away many years ago. It definitely is not how I remember it. Trisha and I did some driving around and took a trip down memory lane one afternoon. We drove by our high school and My old home as well as a duplex we lived in before we moved.

We left Portland and headed home to Elk Grove on Sunday, the following mooring I had to go out to Travis for my Pre op appt. and to fill out some paper work for my back surgery. I spent most of the day at Travis and came home that afternoon. On Wednesday the 7th of Jan Trisha and I drove out to the hospital on Travis AFB, I got singed in and ready for the fun of surgery. From what I 'm told it took about 3 and a half hours to do. I really don't remember much after going in to the prep room. I woke up in the recovery room vary groggy and tried I was not in vary much pain at the time. They moved me to my room ware Trisha was waiting for my. They had me move from the gurney to the bed. After I was aware of what was going on they brought me some vary tasty hospital food, and I tyred to chock it down the best I could. After eating I was ready to walk, the nurse put a lease on me just in case I fell down and I walk around the wing. After sitting in my chair and walk the Doctor came in to see me and asked how I was doing. He saw no reason to keep me in the hospital over night and let me go home to my bed.

I could tell right a way that the sugary had helped relive the back and leg pain because it was gone and it hasn't come back yet. I am sit sore from were the incision was made but that is the only pain I have at this point. I feel better and better everyday and an able to do more and mo0re everyday as well. my only concern is that I might try to do to much and hurt my self again, so I'm trying to take it easy for now. My Mom, Jason and Jenna came down to visit after I got out of the hospital. I'm sure they were board of watching movies by the time they left but I did go down to old Sac and walked around for a while with them just to get out of the house. I always enjoy there visit and love to play cards with them. I kind of reminds me of being a kid again but just for a short while.

Well that it for know I will try and be better about updating this thing more often.