Tuesday, April 7, 2009

April showers bring May Flowers

So, Ya its been a few months sense I have posted anything to my blog and I figured its about time to bring everyone up to date. I am as always good. I got gas in the tank of my truck a job to go to every Mon-Fri, a place to call home, and food in my belly. What else dose this man need? Now as far as Trisha goes I am growing more and more concerned with her health and state of mind every day! I am vary worried that she is slipping back into her depression more and more as the weeks fly past. I am finding myself in that place were you don't know what it is the right thing to do. I don't know if I should let her be and just try and be there for her when she is ready, or do I try and do something and risk loosing her by making her so upset and angry at me she decides to leave me. I want to help her and love her, but on the other hand when is enough, enough and I find myself doing everything by myself with no support? I am vary grateful for the thing she dose at home, but I have to say it become less and less as time goes on. So it seams I have once again come to the crossroads of life, and could really use a GPS to tell me witch way to go! I think ultimately the choose is up to her on what she dose I can only wait a see.

It seems Life is giving everyone in our families curve ball as of late. My parents are fighting there own battle with my dad's former employer. What makes a man become so evil and greedy I have no idea but he has sure done a number on my dad. I think having dealt with Trisha's depression help me recognise it in my father right a way. He too has been fight depression ever sense his heart attack a few years ago. The Fun thing about depression is just when you think your on top of it, it will out flank you from the side and hit you twice as hard as it did before. I am glad I can be there to help out my mom even if it is just talking on the phone but being able to relate to what she is trying to deal with I think is good for her. I just hope she can hang in there long enough to see the light at the end of the tunnel. I really wish I had better thing to talk about but I guess I don't. I really hope all that read this who ever you might be are well. I am sure life will turn for the better soon and all these small little things we deal with will be replaced with new one's, and some day I will look back and say I made it though that I can make it though anything so bring it on, or just the opposite and say I wish that was all I had to deal with! Who knows? but for now I'll take it one day at a time and always keep my boots on!

Until we meet again have a good one!

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